I speak from the heart. Some days I’m annoyed, today’s i was annnoyed about the gov forcing people out of their homes for flooding that wasn’t their fault. Other days I’m not annoyed. Everyday I’m thankful. It’s a daily challenge overcoming the old me. But people grow, and if they are lucky get closer to God. I am interested in what you think I fear outside of totally doxing myself. Honestly I don’t fear of that, but worry about the safety of the ones around me. Lunatic retaliation is real. I preached to my Mother for years that she was closer to the end than the beginning. She needed to get right with the Lord because her time is coming. At the time it was lip service, but I believed she needed to do that. I was to blind to see she was far past that and ready to go home. Even in seeing that, I was still not ready. What plans are for me, what is left to do? So much. I was not ready. After you give it all back to Him all of the worry and stress, pain, ego, envy, lust and greed, the mind becomes far clearer. We can remove the blinded this world gives us, and then let the soul focus on what matters. As for me I know that I will get my reward and go home. I know where home is. And I welcome it. I also have been shown there is more time left and a clear marker in the sand which I will live to see. That maker has not come. It is sad that the one I love will not be here at that time, this was clear to me when shown, that loss at that moment was more sadness than anything I have felt before, but it was fleeting. For quite some time I didn’t understand how that sadness was so great but could be gone so quickly. I now understand that, as when she is gone I know she is home. And that gives me more calm than the calm I have with my own departure. I thought it was a curse at first to know that she would leave before me. But now it is a blessing. As I know she will not have to spend a second letting this world without me. I do not know if she could bear that. I know the loss will be great but it only strengthens my faith in what is to come. She will be able to watch me finish this race and find my final reward. My only ask of the Lord is she is here long enough to witness the changes that are coming, the good tha will wash over this world. It has been simmering for some time and it is coming. But again I don’t get to pick those things, they are already written. Written eons before I arrived. When I signed my contract to be here. You can believe as you like. I will believe that there are some of us that will see this truth in our time here. Until that time, or my day comes, I choose to walk the path He has given. I’ll walk the fuck it if it until He points me in another direction. I will also speak the word so as others might see the path. This is my truth which I lay bare. What shall I have to fear when I am on the side of God?