I tried that shit in my 20's. It wasn't mine but my girlfriend at the time. I had to speak publicly for work, and dreaded it. It made me numb and "worked", but after a few weeks I started to have crazy thoughts and eventually a panic attack. I got off that shit and never looked back. Then at some point in my 30's I stopped being afraid of things. They shouldn't be giving brain drugs out like candy. They really mess you up. I can't imagine being on that shit for years.