i may try it of i catch it again this year. thanks and the extra light makes sense as in a healing way
i may try it of i catch it again this year. thanks and the extra light makes sense as in a healing way
Congratulations on being orange!
Edit: This is a good read.
Congratulations on being orange!
Edit: This is a good read.
Just in time for the Halloween colors.
Just in time for the Halloween colors.
maybe this change of season stuff is responsible for my recent melancholy. I had been attributing the bad mood to the festering sores of disappointment that make up my family.
maybe this change of season stuff is responsible for my recent melancholy. I had been attributing the bad mood to the festering sores of disappointment that make up my family.
The best way to deal with festering sores is to scratch them.
Source: Am dermatologist
The best way to deal with festering sores is to scratch them.
Source: Am dermatologist
Try some vitamin D. Even with vitamin D I understand what you go through.
With no explanation to the darkness sets in. It always feels like clockwork for me but there are no reasons.
I've started to just deal with it like we all deal with things. Oh, its time to pay taxes again. Just something we all do. Normalizing it has helped me a little to deal with it.
Not to say this is something we all deal with. I know there are people who aren't touched by depression in the slightest. People who just get upset due to environmental issues.
But I don't envy them. There is always a silver lining in everything! It is my true belief that the darker the dark gets the brighter the light gets. When you are pushed to low's there is always an end to them. There are always good times again, after. I think those of us who are touched by the dark appreciate the light a little more. Maybe even a whole fucking lot more.
Try some vitamin D. Even with vitamin D I understand what you go through.
With no explanation to the darkness sets in. It always feels like clockwork for me but there are no reasons.
I've started to just deal with it like we all deal with things. Oh, its time to pay taxes again. Just something we all do. Normalizing it has helped me a little to deal with it.
Not to say this is something we all deal with. I know there are people who aren't touched by depression in the slightest. People who just get upset due to environmental issues.
But I don't envy them. There is always a silver lining in everything! It is my true belief that the darker the dark gets the brighter the light gets. When you are pushed to low's there is always an end to them. There are always good times again, after. I think those of us who are touched by the dark appreciate the light a little more. Maybe even a whole fucking lot more.
Maybe it's because you know that the ultra commercial holiday of obligation is straight ahead... just put on your lemming hat, go out and buy shit for people that they don't need or want, and know that you are helping to prop up the ponzi scheme known as the economy... then get drunk and do some drugs and you'll be okay.
/s
Maybe it's because you know that the ultra commercial holiday of obligation is straight ahead... just put on your lemming hat, go out and buy shit for people that they don't need or want, and know that you are helping to prop up the ponzi scheme known as the economy... then get drunk and do some drugs and you'll be okay.
/s
Well, NOW I DO.
Thanks.
Merry FUCKING Christmas
Well, NOW I DO.
Thanks.
Merry FUCKING Christmas
i do too... past few weeks i've been depressed over drinking etc. I just have a lot on my shoulders right now. Its getting colder now then snow will hit stuck inside because of the cold.... shorter days.
IDK, my family has a history of depression my sisters take pills etc... i wont. they are older than me and said they started to get rough at my age. Fuck one started to cry when i told her. But I really had it since highschool, I just good at hiding it.
So i destroy my body with booze to forget, its funny because you can tell when I'm sobered up... Im very reserved and quiet.
ever been trapped in yourself before, i do everything i can to escape it <----depressed thoughts if ya understand that
put yeah i just drink too much thats about it.
you can pm me if ya want to say something private.
i do too... past few weeks i've been depressed over drinking etc. I just have a lot on my shoulders right now. Its getting colder now then snow will hit stuck inside because of the cold.... shorter days.
IDK, my family has a history of depression my sisters take pills etc... i wont. they are older than me and said they started to get rough at my age. Fuck one started to cry when i told her. But I really had it since highschool, I just good at hiding it.
So i destroy my body with booze to forget, its funny because you can tell when I'm sobered up... Im very reserved and quiet.
ever been trapped in yourself before, i do everything i can to escape it <----depressed thoughts if ya understand that
put yeah i just drink too much thats about it.
you can pm me if ya want to say something private.
The mornings are always the worst.
That feeling when I first wake up.
I wake up in bed, and I don't want to leave. I just want to go back to sleep, and dream. I want to dream forever. It's not like I want to die.
It's just like I'm more comfortable in the confines of my own mind than I am in the external world.
This world is so sad and so fallen and so full of shit.
And my mind is so limitless and creative and full of memories and thoughts and love and horror that I would rather live in there.
But eventually I get up anyway, and go along with my day.
But I am never depressed in my dreams. Sometimes I am terrified, or hopeful, or as happy as could be.
But never depressed.
So that bed calls to me. That bed asks me to lay in it. And that bed never wants me to get up.
The mornings are always the worst.
That feeling when I first wake up.
I wake up in bed, and I don't want to leave. I just want to go back to sleep, and dream. I want to dream forever. It's not like I want to die.
It's just like I'm more comfortable in the confines of my own mind than I am in the external world.
This world is so sad and so fallen and so full of shit.
And my mind is so limitless and creative and full of memories and thoughts and love and horror that I would rather live in there.
But eventually I get up anyway, and go along with my day.
But I am never depressed in my dreams. Sometimes I am terrified, or hopeful, or as happy as could be.
But never depressed.
So that bed calls to me. That bed asks me to lay in it. And that bed never wants me to get up.
has the weather cooled where you are? not wanting to get out of bed I attribute to the change in air temp - put a space heater by the bed so the new day can welcome you with a blanket of warmth!
has the weather cooled where you are? not wanting to get out of bed I attribute to the change in air temp - put a space heater by the bed so the new day can welcome you with a blanket of warmth!
Naw it is actually quite warm tonight.
Naw it is actually quite warm tonight.
. I just want to go back to sleep, and dream. I want to dream forever
i get that way too, i think its because you dont feel the stress. its kinda why i hate drinking so much, you dont really dream. I get the most vivid dreams when sober if i can sleep.
I cant stop thinking as i also have anxiety issues, the booze does nothing to help that. plus ya get over emotional etc, but hey, i can fall asleep.
But I am never depressed in my dreams.
I have, it sucks i usually wake up at that point.
look, im backing off a bit on this conversation i dont want to get more personal publicly. But yeah man, like I said if ya want shoot me a pm
ya not alone dude
>. I just want to go back to sleep, and dream. I want to dream forever
i get that way too, i think its because you dont feel the stress. its kinda why i hate drinking so much, you dont really dream. I get the most vivid dreams when sober if i can sleep.
I cant stop thinking as i also have anxiety issues, the booze does nothing to help that. plus ya get over emotional etc, but hey, i can fall asleep.
>But I am never depressed in my dreams.
I have, it sucks i usually wake up at that point.
look, im backing off a bit on this conversation i dont want to get more personal publicly. But yeah man, like I said if ya want shoot me a pm
ya not alone dude
Anyone else ever feel this way?
Oh yeah. Regularly.
In fact, if I didn't, I'd start to think something was wrong.
Vinegar is meant to taste like that.
Maybe I'm just going mad.
I get the impression that you're not going to be that lucky. In fact, I think the exact opposite is happening.
Madmen have it easy in this world, because the world itself has gone mad. It spends its days playing pretend, acting out the utopian fantasies in its collective head and denying reality because that would be uncomfortable; bemoaning, at great length and with furious detail, that the vinegar does not taste like wine.
And the idea of standing against it all feels like wading out into the shallows and trying to hold back the tide. How is any right-thinking person to feel about this? How is feeling about this even going to accomplish anything? Isn't that already what everyone is doing?
I don't know why.
I can't tell you why, but I can tell you how to find out: You go to the woods. And I don't mean "camping", I mean "get yourself a good knife and a great pair of hiking boots and go to the woods. Stay for a month. Stay for two if you can." You will find answers to many otherwise confusing questions out there.
> Anyone else ever feel this way?
Oh yeah. Regularly.
In fact, if I didn't, I'd start to think something was wrong.
*Vinegar is meant to taste like that*.
> Maybe I'm just going mad.
I get the impression that you're not going to be that lucky. In fact, I think the exact opposite is happening.
Madmen have it easy in this world, because the world itself has gone mad. It spends its days playing pretend, acting out the utopian fantasies in its collective head and denying reality because that would be uncomfortable; bemoaning, at great length and with furious detail, that the vinegar does not taste like wine.
And the idea of standing against it all feels like wading out into the shallows and trying to hold back the tide. How is any right-thinking person to feel about this? How is *feeling about this* even going to accomplish anything? Isn't that already what everyone is doing?
> I don't know why.
I can't tell you why, but I can tell you how to find out: You go to the woods. And I don't mean "camping", I mean "get yourself a good knife and a great pair of hiking boots and *go to the woods*. Stay for a month. Stay for two if you can." You will find answers to many otherwise confusing questions out there.
I've never recieved such intense but perhaps worthwhile advice.
Life was better when I lived in the swamp.
I've never recieved such intense but perhaps worthwhile advice.
Life was better when I lived in the swamp.
damnit bro i feel that same way and it usually ends up with an od or a hospitilozation. is like some kinda curse
damnit bro i feel that same way and it usually ends up with an od or a hospitilozation. is like some kinda curse
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