Your behavior hasn't been normal recently. A few close friends, along with some distant relatives, have observed that you seem to be out of sorts. Nobody can blame you for your behaviors. This is a novel time to be alive. It certainly isn't the hardest time to be alive, I'm sure all of our common ancestors could attest to that, but it is a new time. And with new times, come interesting problems. Problems we have never faced before, either as individuals, or as a whole humanity. So, while you are relatively isolated, some of your current thought processes don't make a lot of sense to me. You keep on talking about others as though they are the cause of all of our problems. But I'd like it if you went deeper than that, as uncomfortable as it may be. Let's go down into the nitty-gritty of it, and look at why you are actually the cause of everyone's problems. Blame any single person, or any segment of any population you want to. It is an easy enough. And doing so might help you feel better, If only for a moment. But when you back up, you have to realize, That all those evils, committed by people, or groups of people, during your lifetime... How hard did you try to prevent them from doing that Evil? Did you actually even try? Because the Evil was still committed. This is why you have to learn how to forgive yourself. Because you ***KNOW*** you are the only one to blame.