alas, if its any help, i am same way. one or two is not enough, and the next time its 4, then four everyday, and sometimes 8, or 12, or 16... envious of those bastards that can enjoy moderate drinking. good... luck? with your marriage? i hope you get it straightened out. guessing this has happened before if wifey is kicking you out for booze in the home. quitting alcohol, like quitting anything, for me was, and still is, a process. i think you will kick the habit eventually if you want to.