So it's been about 2 weeks. Figured I'd give an update. No I have not smoked at all. I'm not a cheater. Although today I really wanted to... Literally had some crazy bitch accuse me of being a woman hater today (loudly) in public. Bitch tried to get other people involved too. Luckily the lady that works at the store saw the whole thing go down. I've been going to that same store off and on for over a year and we talk everytime I'm there. She had my back and told the other woman to leave. All because I didn't stand there and hold the door while she stopped to talk to someone else. Bitch I'll hold the door, but I'm not going to wait for you to have a conversation. Really wanted to slap her, but I didn't and wouldn't. Not how I was raised. Weed was my goto to help calm down in situations like that. So if you saw my other REEEE post earlier that was why, and my bad. I try not to take shit out on other people. Today got me gud...
Dreams! What the Fuck! I don't want them! I am steady dreaming every fucking night. Some good some bad, but I find it disorienting to wake up remembering things that never happened. Just one more thing to get stuck in my own head about. Have a short summary of one:
On the boat fishing with Wife and oldest son. In a hurry to leave. Not sure why. Saw a huge bass, and I just had to go for it. Caught it, it was fucking huge. Wanted the old lady to take a picture of me and fish. Tried giving her the camera. She starts posing like I'm supposed to take her picture. She won't stop, won't take the camera. Screaming at her. PLEASE TAKE MY PICTURE WITH THE FISH!!! Wake up... WTF!
Sleep. Why the fuck do I not want to wake up all of a sudden? Usually when my eyes open I am up. Lately (on the weekend) I find myself wanting to go back to sleep. Sleeping in till 9 and shit. I don't do that! Luckily it hasn't affected me getting up for work. We'll see how this weekend goes.
Other that that nothing new to report really. To be honest it's not that hard to quit weed and I was a very heavy user. The urge to "smoke" something is getting less . Long deep breaths help. Thought about dusting off the old hooka and smoking some flavored tobacco. Haven't used that thing in years. Maybe, maybe not. Still mulling it over in my head...
Like always if you're curious to know more or just want some juicy details just ask.
So it's been about 2 weeks. Figured I'd give an update. No I have not smoked at all. I'm not a cheater. Although today I really wanted to... Literally had some crazy bitch accuse me of being a woman hater today (loudly) in public. Bitch tried to get other people involved too. Luckily the lady that works at the store saw the whole thing go down. I've been going to that same store off and on for over a year and we talk everytime I'm there. She had my back and told the other woman to leave. All because I didn't stand there and hold the door while she stopped to talk to someone else. Bitch I'll hold the door, but I'm not going to wait for you to have a conversation. Really wanted to slap her, but I didn't and wouldn't. Not how I was raised. Weed was my goto to help calm down in situations like that. So if you saw my other REEEE post earlier that was why, and my bad. I try not to take shit out on other people. Today got me gud...
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Dreams! What the Fuck! I don't want them! I am steady dreaming every fucking night. Some good some bad, but I find it disorienting to wake up remembering things that never happened. Just one more thing to get stuck in my own head about. Have a short summary of one:
On the boat fishing with Wife and oldest son. In a hurry to leave. Not sure why. Saw a huge bass, and I just had to go for it. Caught it, it was fucking huge. Wanted the old lady to take a picture of me and fish. Tried giving her the camera. She starts posing like I'm supposed to take her picture. She won't stop, won't take the camera. Screaming at her. PLEASE TAKE MY PICTURE WITH THE FISH!!! Wake up... WTF!
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Sleep. Why the fuck do I not want to wake up all of a sudden? Usually when my eyes open I am up. Lately (on the weekend) I find myself wanting to go back to sleep. Sleeping in till 9 and shit. I don't do that! Luckily it hasn't affected me getting up for work. We'll see how this weekend goes.
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Other that that nothing new to report really. To be honest it's not that hard to quit weed and I was a very heavy user. The urge to "smoke" something is getting less [(see part 1)](https://poal.co/s/TellPoal/692661). Long deep breaths help. Thought about dusting off the old hooka and smoking some flavored tobacco. Haven't used that thing in years. Maybe, maybe not. Still mulling it over in my head...
Like always if you're curious to know more or just want some juicy details just ask.
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