It can be a real struggle to find the joy in life, at times. Take a second to pray to God. Ask Him for strength. That's it. Do so as necessary. 100 times a day if you have to. You don't even need to say it out loud. Don't need to go to church to say it. No need to kneel or clasp your hands. He listens. He will answer you. God made me realize that His joy is all around us, we only have to see it. I am but a man. I feel pain and anguish, I feel joy and happiness. By the end of my days, one is certain to outweigh the other, but, I'll be damned if His joy isn't my heaviest load I've had to endure in His world.