Ah yes, this is why everyone thinks I've been brainwashed by a cult. I was very oof about my beliefs and try to drip feed but I have no tact or knack for communicating. I end up getting backlogged and start sharing videos and meme and word vomit at them until they think I'm effectively nuts. Don't know how to talk to my family at this point. I'm a huge disappointment, though they put all that pressure on my fiance and try to convince me he's the enemy and they are on my side.