I'm of two minds on that subject, largely because I'm in a similar boat my friend. I've seen a lot of men, who retire, die within a few years of leaving the work force, because without that sense of direction and purpose they seem to lose a will to live also. But, at the same time, I would like to experience living without the feeling of NEED to work. Just exist and enjoy. Write more like I did in my teens. Garden. Fish. Just...be.
Guess that's why I've had more and more dark thoughts the older I get. Sadly, I can't go down the chemical or liquid solution base like so many do.
You can have a sense of direction and purpose without being a slave to someone else's whims. That's what those fail to realise.
Guess all I can say is I envy people, yourself included I supposed, who are able to come to that realization and live that reality.
You can too. You just need to say "No fucking more" and follow through.
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