Make it a woke/ds thing, like they want you to keep using and you aren't going to give them the satisfaction. It's not just a great awakening, it's *your* great awakening as well. Lots of bad guys around who you could cast in your mental movie to motivate you into sobriety. When you have a big enough **why**, you have access to untapped reserves that can be transformational. Don't give up, it's never too late. Kick ass and we'll see you on the other side of it.