> God is real, and he is Evil incarnate. Blasphemy, you heathen! God is perfect and God is good, and yet in creating us and giving us free will, he foresaw that we would make decisions not in accordance with his own will. That’s where the evil comes from, but it is exacerbated by the fallen angels and their offspring the Nephilim (fallen ones), who also chose contrary to God’s will. The chief of such is The Satan, and this world has been given into his hand for a time, to tempt us and lead us astray that God might refine and test us. We are being refined as silver is refined in the furnace, but this will not last forever. Look at your life as Groundhog Day (the movie). Every day is an opportunity to refine your soul, to say no to evil, and to say yes to good. If you fail, get up the next day and try again. Good luck in your rehab. If you earnestly seek God and ask him to free you from this addiction, perhaps he will grant you repentance. He lets you continually fall into sin because of the hardness of your heart and your pride - to humble you and to show you that you can do nothing without him. Good luck brother, see you in a month.