It was sad, but I’m not sad. 22 years together, I was just 19. Neither one of us is totally at fault, it just soured gradually over the past few years. If I were to put most of the blame on something. I’d say it was our shared alcoholism. The heavy drinking started I’d say 3 to 3 1/2 years ago. We have a five year old son who is non-verbal severely autistic. He wasn’t always that way. At 1 years old, he was progressing well above average. He was saying mama, dada, bye bye, bah bah (bottle) etc. We had a one year doctors appointment. He was to get 4 shots at once. The wife and I back then were completely clueless about the dangers of vaccines and the pharmaceutical industry. We will never forgive ourselves. I held him down while they did it. I will never forget that day, it will always be the worst thing I’ve ever done in my entire life. He fell asleep on the way home, and when he woke up, he was a different child. He wasn’t talking anymore. He wouldn’t make eye contact. He wouldn’t respond to his name or any verbal/noises that was made. After learning about what horrific things these vaccines do to children, and doing so much research, we had realized what we had done to our own child. Turning to the drink came so easily to deal with what we did, and how hard it is just getting through one day of taking care of him. We love our son so much. There are good days, and there are really bad days. Drinking once every few days became every other day, then it became every day. Then it became shitfaced drunk every night. Most of those nights involved drunken arguments with every horrible thing we could say to each other. It got to a point where there was no going back. We cut each other too deep too many times. So, a few weeks ago we decided to end it. We need to do what’s best for all of us, mainly our son. We were honest with each other about everything, especially the fact that both of us have been sneaking around with other people and lying so much to each other for several months. We are getting along well, still living together until I find a place. We are kinda friends now, trying to get off the bottle. It’s weird how well we are getting along. Our divorce is uncontested, and we aren’t fighting over anything. Our son’s behavior has greatly improved because of the absence of hostility. We tried really hard to not argue around him, but he could sense the negative atmosphere. Alcoholism definitely had a major role in ending what we both thought was going to be forever. I’ve recognized that, and I’m doing my best to stop. Things are looking good, and I hope this year is a good one for all of us.