We don't repeat the cycle due to going into the light. We repeat the cycle for not believing in the light. Note: I do not mean Faith in Satan, I mean the colloquial light of Faith - in Jesus Christ. This is specifically why the first plank of civilization jews always attack is that of Faith as destroying Faith then destroys intelligence, morality and strength. Which then creates weak men who do not "go to the light".
That's my problem, brother... Faith. I don't have it. Faith is believing in something without proof.
You want to know who I am? Picture Agent Mulder, only much older and with a white beard and less teeth; not employed by the FBI. I'm sitting behind a desk in what looks like an FBI basement office and there's a poster on the wall behind me. The poster is a picture of Jesus Christ crucified to the cross and God coming down from the sky to bring Him back home to Heaven.
The caption reads: I WANT TO BELIEVE
You are the same as me. I can tell.
I'm not old, I have all my teeth, and I don't have grey hair. I fully have Faith. I just have trouble accepting myself, not God. By that I mean I have trouble understanding how I can be accepted by God. Life scares me, death scares me even more.
Life is brief. Death is forever. It scares me too. I wish I had your faith.
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