Man that sucks. Yet go figure I am just the opposite. I am running full speed at death. Not from a death wish or anything but I started OUT in this world near death with Spinal Meningitis. As a result my immune system is garbage and any virus can lay me to waste at any time and nearly has on many occasions. Ive BEEN dead twice so I know whats coming and I have no fear of it. Its worlds better than THIS shithouse I'll say that. Consequently, I will always take a risk. A lot of the pain receptors in my brain got shut off due to the illness so I have no fear of fights or injuries even at my age. I'm old and its ok. Lots of stuff no longer works and its also ok. Life IS and was for living. Hunter S Thompson was a degenerate asshole but his quote on Life is spot on....“Life should not be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty and well-preserved body, but rather to skid in broadside in a cloud of smoke, thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming “Wow! What a Ride!”
That is how "I" have lived MY life. I started in a compromised body and beat the shit out of it because I KNEW it wasn't built to last. I worked with my body my entire life. I was a hockey goaltender, a baseball catcher, a martial artist and a drummer in a touring band. ALL things that rip at your joints and back. Im a mess and I don't care. the EXPERIENCE was well worth the price paid.
You are not a young boy anymore so your Dad may as well be a ghost. Its done
EVERYONE is afraid of Niggers. That's why they're NIGGERS
Not many people enjoy solitude.
MY Father wanted two Saint Bernards. Instead he got me and my older brother. He survived.
A job is just a means to an end. Nothing more. Ive lost a shit ton of them and gotten a shit ton more. It happens
Embrace getting old. it means you've LIVED a long ass time and haven't been taken down. Spit in life's eye, you'll feel better.
EVERYONE and EVERYTHING eventually deteriorates. Its what makes our time here valuable.
And when you close your eyes here for last time you'll open them again in a place you can't even imagine. Its THAT awesome.
I wish you peace of the soul and the hope that when the road is done you will have bested the fear. Good luck
Hey brother , I made peace with my dad before he died. I fought niggers at least once a week from 4th grade until I made it to a college prep H.S. where niggers were few and far between. They " integrated " our grade school when I was in 3rd grade. The nigger savages were ruthless and our parents and teachers did nothing to protect us. As a child of 9 I knew nobody would protect me and I was on my own. 3 other White kids and myself became fucking gladiators fighting these beasts. I have learned to act despite being afraid , I just wanted to admit I've been afraid most of my life.
Well "I" happen to think it TAKES a brave man to admit he's afraid.
Im glad you things squared with your dad. Unfortunately NO ONE can fuck you up like "FAMILY" can. i found THAT out first hand.
And I'm old enough to be with you on the Niggers. I lived through the forced busing of the early 70's In Massachusetts where it seemed to be the fucking worst in the Country. the Riots, The Bullshit. The Niggers coming in From Jamaica Plain, Mattapan, Roxbury, Dorchester. Friggin nightmarish then they also added fuckin reform school criminals to our Jr. High. What a shit show.
well at least in the end, we get OUT of this bs and on to better things.
And your screen name still gives me a laugh. Love that
Thank brother. Stay strong White Power !
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