For a couple weeks, I broke down and went to the store and my dumbass bought two bottles cause I know the game Im playing. Apparently I cant have it in the house, I thought I could be responsible with it but it aint gonna happen. When you live alone and work alone there is nothing else to blame. I cant change anything up or stop what Im not doing. Beer costs to damn much and doesnt even give me a buzz. Im not gonna pour anything out but gonna give not drinking another go for awhile. I always thought I would start working out again if I quit but with this fucking shoulder that aint happening now. Shit aint easy but its past time.