Been with this girl for over a year. It's honestly been the most wholesome, reliable and serious relationship I've ever had (I'm in my mid twenties and haven't had many serious relationships). I've been part of this redpilling, awakening process for well over six years now, so when I stumbled across this White women (she's 31) who could take care of herself, cook, be smart, funny, reliable with money, independent and isn't in any way obsessed with her phone or the toxic culture of materialism, and didn't at all seem like she'd rode along the dick carousel most her adult life, well, I looked past her mild looks and saw the person who I wanted to be with. The person who could potentially mother our children and not have to worry about her whoring out on Saturday nights or being a massive cunt because of whatever the digital jew sends through her phone. So a good year has passed, and we're settling down a bit, but two things have become immensely troublesome for me: the first and most important is that she is not interested, at all, in having children (her reasons being because the world is shit and who would want to raise a child, and because her mother fell terminally ill after her last pregnancy). The second thing is I'm starting to notice that I am less and less attracted to her physically. This may in part be due to the first point, because I do, absolutely, want children while I am relatively young. So I'm met with this problem, I've found an amazing 5.5/10 women, who I get along with very well and have started settling down with, but her not wanting children at 31 is present and a problem, and her lack of typical attractiveness is becoming more and more flagrant and I'm starting to feel really shit about having these thoughts. It's just, and this sounds awful, but I never have a moment where she walks through the door and I think to myself "Holy shit she's gorgeous". That just never happens and I'm thinking fuck, I don't like where this is going. And for context, I hate to suck my own dick, but this is also a problem that I myself am far from unattractive. I workout regularly, have a decent paying job, and do emit alpha tendencies (the redpilling has done wonders to mental strength and rigidity). I often get flirted with or get looks when out, and I can't help feel that I'm not in a position where it would be too hard to find a mate who is more attractive and wants kids. There I said it.