In my 20’s, I was depressed. I’d say now, looking back, I was severely depressed.
At some point in my early 20’s, I got a prescription for Prozac, which is an SSRI. It took some time to kick in, but it did help.
It is a powerful drug, no doubt. Was very subtle in how it worked and they have you slowly taper on to it. To get off of it, you are also supposed taper off under doctor supervision.
Well, I didn’t. I decided to quit cold turkey. For the first three days, it was pretty fucked up. Basically my dick didn’t work and I was paranoid AF.
In any case, I never had any rage issues or murderous ideation either when on it or even when I quit cold turkey and was mentally fucked up for a few days.
But, that’s just me. Drugs affect different people differently and make no mistake, that is a powerful drug.
What I’ve always wondered was whether the SSRI’s are causing this shit or if people who already have issues are getting on SSRI’s precisely to combat those issues.
I don’t know the answer, but it hasn’t gone unnoticed to me that the kids perpetrating these crimes all happen to be on such drugs. But did the chicken or the egg come first? We’re they on the drugs precisely because they were fucked up and the drugs weren’t enough to help? Or the drugs further pushed them in a bad direction they were heading anyhow?
In my case, I eventually came to the conclusion that my depression was on me. My thought patterns, what I chose to believe about myself or my life, the things I chose to dwell on, etc. Drugs don’t fix that shit. They may offer relief in some cases, but it’s like putting a bandaid on a bullet wound.
Once I figured that out, I made changes and beat depression without drugs.
It’s not to say I never get sad or even depressed, but if I do it’s situational, which is normal, and doesn’t last long nor is it anywhere nearly as pervasive or intense as things were back then.
I think that shit is overprescribed, honestly.
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