Ya know, I wish I didnt smoke, I wish I didnt drink. But I do and have pretty much always, wtf? It dont matter anymore.
It messes me up, turns days into weeks. Still have a lot of stuff to do. I don't even enjoy it half the time I get angry and smash stuff.
I rarely get out of hand weekdays, and occasionally Im like why the fuck am I smokin this shit. But Im not angry or smash shit. I just regret more than anything.
Yeah I fantasize about being a teenager again and doing everything over knowing what I know now. I guess that's normal but not if you do it every day. I have plenty of reasons to be angry I think we all do but unfocused anger sucks. But hey no TV or PS3 to waste my time anymore (I smashed them).
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