Maybe you replied to the wrong person? You still appear to be upset. Sign out, relax, go do something for a while. Step away from this place. It's clearly become toxic for you. Not good for your wellbeing. This is why they were trolling you - they want this type of reaction out of you (consider deleting your reply to me so they can't use it as fuel to make fun of you, more). Also, above all else, please do not self-harm in any way. That includes drinking alcohol or drugs. Don't let this type of situation make you hurt yourself in any way. Try to workout at a gym or at home. Or go for a jog. Watch a movie/TV show you like. Make a delicious meal. Visit a good friend you haven't seen in a while (or call/video chat them). When a website/chat service makes you this upset, it is NOT worth investing any more time into it. Maybe my words won't get to you, now, but I hope you read this and it sinks in enough to help at some point. Not everyone wants bad things to happen to you, specifically. All the best, Some dude