I'm afraid the issue with what you're setting me up for is you're going to say "that sounds like you're scared" no matter how intricately I explain it. I've always enjoyed you more than the others TK. Let's just stay on good terms. I get it. Lots of young men are disaffected these days. You've been so emasculated, torn down and mocked. I don't blame you for lashing out at the world. Do you want to know the best solution? Start with yourself. Do all you can to bolster your own position. Get fit. Get rich. Get free. After that, it's up to you to either build your kingdom or escape (I propose the latter for you, considering where you're located physically). I'm not sure you get to act like I've done nothing to help you or anyone and I don't see how acting like I'm scared makes much sense, but I don't blame you for not being privy to my circumstances.