The ONLY reason i am doing this is because i told myself my wife(deceased) would have wanted me to finish my fucking degree, and that she would have wanted me to have one. She didn't particularly care that i finished, so much that i didn't account for all stages of my employment career. In her eyes, if there was opportunities that required it, it could make sense that i finish my degree so i could apply to those jobs. And yet, i really AM trying, and yet i hate the entire idea. I'm doing the classes, and I am trying, but every bone of my body is being tested with this perverse bullshit. I am taking an engineering degree, and yet all the classes i have left are common core, grievance studies. And i am so close to throwing the table over and saying fuck it