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I used to take these meds at the hospital, for pulmonary damage. One of them was a steroid, and the other was not. Anyways, ever since i have been taken these meds more often, ive had this lingering low grade depression bugging me. It wont go away, and all i can think of is misery and despair. Exercising doesnt help, nor does drinking more water, cutting out carbs, etc it supercedes any mechanism for me to get rid of the depression. The problem is if i stop taking these meds, i will die within 2 years, and if i keep taking the meds i could possibly live for 20 or more. So part of me wants to go for the noble death, and die in 2 years knowing i lived a great live, vs lingering around in misery and agony for 20 or more years.

That is all.

I used to take these meds at the hospital, for pulmonary damage. One of them was a steroid, and the other was not. Anyways, ever since i have been taken these meds more often, ive had this lingering low grade depression bugging me. It wont go away, and all i can think of is misery and despair. Exercising doesnt help, nor does drinking more water, cutting out carbs, etc it supercedes any mechanism for me to get rid of the depression. The problem is if i stop taking these meds, i will die within 2 years, and if i keep taking the meds i could possibly live for 20 or more. So part of me wants to go for the noble death, and die in 2 years knowing i lived a great live, vs lingering around in misery and agony for 20 or more years. That is all.

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I know the feeling. Any kind of substance abuse or consistent ingestion of chemicals can mess with the brain.

It would be good if you can drop the meds, maybe find an alternative.

They can cause a brain imbalance, you're suffering from Anhedonia. Some describe it as 'pleasure proof' or 'pleasure deaf.'

It sucks immensely.

I can't even take Kratom for an extended period without suffering from this, and you lose all motivation.