Its not easy. Being awake sucks. Its bad but bring them to your level.
I spent a lot of time spinning in circles, trying to find my own source of truth and meaning. Joined the military, that went -okay- I guess, returned home and going to college, even though it's mostly a crock of shit. Just want to get a degree in something technical and get out.
Finally being on my own (got an apartment after coming back home last year) helped me to be a bit more truthful about who I am, both to myself and others. I've been working from there.
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