Then change, if I had to live like that I would make the effort because that is 24/7/365 and you are the only one that can accomplish or even ask to have this done. If you want to change then the first step is to what and then ask is this a shallow thing or something on a higher level that is going to make a real difference to you and your loved ones. If it's not worth the effort then don't start since it'll have a bad negative effect but if it's worthwhile then go for it. I also think the saying of be careful what you wish for since wishing is better that wanting in my experience and everything has a bad of good side to it if you look at it from all perspectives things lose their luster.