You have a valid point. I still choose to believe but to me that just seems like the best option I have. I do still acknowledge that the humanity is and can be seriously fucked up. I don't think there is such thing as a single unified utopia but individual utopias could probably happen. There was a book I read once it was just a fiction thing but it was basically about a guy that died and went to heaven and his adventures there I can't remember it off the top of my head but I'll find it.