I'd bet sexual abuse at a young age and got triggered as an adult if that wasn't a rhetorical question...

mental illness...

Nothing gayer than letting another man penetrate you.

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The sexually abused often subconsciously want to make themselves seem unattractive.

This sort of behavior manifests in children as not cleaning themselves properly, or even soiling themselves.

Extrapolated into adulthood, it sometimes manifests as women with facial tattoos, becoming overweight, and could even be as seemingly innocent as a shaved head / oddly dyed hair.

Is sad. Is real sad.