So, you live alone in the basement of your mom's house and you're actually gay (as opposed to just being a faggot on the Internet), and punctuate like a Zillenial. Gonna guess... part time astroturfer; poor as dirt and probably a bad case of genital warts. Mental illness: Mild Depression. Lack of Motivation. Cannot stick to a project for more than a day or two at a time. Blame others for you powerlessness, despite being your own worst enemy. Sound about right?