I've learned the hard way if God wants someone in or out of my life, He will place them or take them whether I like it or not. When I stopped fighting that my life became a lot less stressful. My wife becomes a better woman every day as we navigate how we hurt each other and learn to speak to each other, just the same makes me a better man for her. I'm no angel. I may deserve better, but she is the one placed in my life, who I am meant to work with, to get better with. This is how my story is being written by Him and I accept this as a gift. A few years ago even I'd have left her and continued a lonely life. Might sound cheesy or weird, but this is how I justify the means to a better end