Leeway is fine. I started smoking at university. A pack of cigarettes was less than $2. $2. You are paying a company to slowly kill you. What is a pack of smokes now? It's $8+ depending on your Jew state and Jew taxes. You are not wrong - I think I understand the physical urge. Maybe you will buy and smoke tonight. I'll say that the feeling of not needing to smoke or drink - it is a nice place - empowering. Many people struggle. I'll hope for you as you might hope for me. Take care.