>it's like I'm seized by passion and all of my anger and bitterness and frustration pours out of my hands (our mouth when speaking) in a deluge of vicious raving. I'm so with you. I've put into prepping, my house/life and my mind. It helps so I don't start ranting about "those fucking joos!" at family functions lol. >more recently, they've been encouraging me to apply for art school, but I suck at drawing/painting If you're good at computers digital art is definitely a way to go, my hands simply didn't have the precision to draw but I do graphic design all the time. Experiment with it, there's tons of FOSS art software out there, and see if you have knack for it. Most folks when they start school they don't go in cold but with talents to be honed. Good luck and definitely keep ranting!