I'm hoping too . This stress of this when I allow to get immersed in this *stuff* , is crazy . I see the reality of the whole picture , and frankly , I don't want to suffer more than I have throughout my life , because I fear intense suffering . And this makes me anxious the world of intense human hatred , intolerance and desire for pathological control over vast populations. Evil , wicked , man I hate bad things ! WHY are people fucking like that? Whole powerful rich groups of people are and do evil global things . It makes me sick , really.