It's ok. You improved. You recognized what you did wrong. You adjusted your behavior. It's not healthy to carry around your past fuckups forever. There's embarrassing shit burned into my mind that pops up every now and then that I'd rather forget. One thing I don't do is save keepsakes of my own failures. Burn that shit. It damages you and all that are around you. Edit: Look at you, you made a daughter and she's all grown up now. You did good! Let go of that old shit.