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at least for a while. took a new job doing industrial maintenance on graveyard. i like it so far. drank the past couple mornings after work because i craved it.

heres the thing that sucks. im classical manic depressive. one beer, one fucking drink, tweeks my mood in a bad way. its insidious. i get short and irritatable for days afterwards. hard to explain unless youre so called mental.

my old solution is just to drink heavily. weirdly, i can drink one or 12, i feel the same. hell, sometimes i feel better hungover because the noise finally stops.

i did quit for about 6months a year or two ago. you know what? nothing changed. my life didn't get better. everything was the same, i just had more unused time to kill.

i just don't want to do it anymore. or, more accurately, i do want to do it. i just dont want to pay the cost of being an irtitable bastard for days afterward. i dont want to deal with the stigma. its bad enough to be nuts let alone everyone think you're an alcoholic.

so, no promises. just gotta figure something out cause this aint workin.

at least for a while. took a new job doing industrial maintenance on graveyard. i like it so far. drank the past couple mornings after work because i craved it. heres the thing that sucks. im classical manic depressive. one beer, one fucking drink, tweeks my mood in a bad way. its insidious. i get short and irritatable for days afterwards. hard to explain unless youre so called mental. my old solution is just to drink heavily. weirdly, i can drink one or 12, i feel the same. hell, sometimes i feel better hungover because the noise finally stops. i did quit for about 6months a year or two ago. you know what? nothing changed. my life didn't get better. everything was the same, i just had more unused time to kill. i just don't want to do it anymore. or, more accurately, i do want to do it. i just dont want to pay the cost of being an irtitable bastard for days afterward. i dont want to deal with the stigma. its bad enough to be nuts let alone everyone think you're an alcoholic. so, no promises. just gotta figure something out cause this aint workin.

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A lot of people don't realize drunks don't just typically end up as dedicated drinkers overnight. It's a gradual progression. During that progression, people often fill time they would have used for other tasks with drinking. Slowly but surely it becomes the thing to do when doing anything.

What you are expressing with no changes is the failure to realize that you have to actively fill those voids with meaningful tasks.

Start small, cleaning etc... Go bigger, working out perhaps 30min-1hr a day... Go find things that will keep you distracted while also offering you the most time to avoid the drink.

In the end, moderation with most things is key...

Once you truly dedicate to quiting, you just have to be cognisant that the urge may never truly disappear completely. That's where healthy routine and a little determination is critical.

It's easier said than done, however, it can be done.