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at least for a while. took a new job doing industrial maintenance on graveyard. i like it so far. drank the past couple mornings after work because i craved it.

heres the thing that sucks. im classical manic depressive. one beer, one fucking drink, tweeks my mood in a bad way. its insidious. i get short and irritatable for days afterwards. hard to explain unless youre so called mental.

my old solution is just to drink heavily. weirdly, i can drink one or 12, i feel the same. hell, sometimes i feel better hungover because the noise finally stops.

i did quit for about 6months a year or two ago. you know what? nothing changed. my life didn't get better. everything was the same, i just had more unused time to kill.

i just don't want to do it anymore. or, more accurately, i do want to do it. i just dont want to pay the cost of being an irtitable bastard for days afterward. i dont want to deal with the stigma. its bad enough to be nuts let alone everyone think you're an alcoholic.

so, no promises. just gotta figure something out cause this aint workin.

at least for a while. took a new job doing industrial maintenance on graveyard. i like it so far. drank the past couple mornings after work because i craved it. heres the thing that sucks. im classical manic depressive. one beer, one fucking drink, tweeks my mood in a bad way. its insidious. i get short and irritatable for days afterwards. hard to explain unless youre so called mental. my old solution is just to drink heavily. weirdly, i can drink one or 12, i feel the same. hell, sometimes i feel better hungover because the noise finally stops. i did quit for about 6months a year or two ago. you know what? nothing changed. my life didn't get better. everything was the same, i just had more unused time to kill. i just don't want to do it anymore. or, more accurately, i do want to do it. i just dont want to pay the cost of being an irtitable bastard for days afterward. i dont want to deal with the stigma. its bad enough to be nuts let alone everyone think you're an alcoholic. so, no promises. just gotta figure something out cause this aint workin.

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It’s probably demonic. I think most (if not) mental ailments in particular are. Same with addictions.

I don’t say this to you in a judgmental way. I’ve had to deal with getting rid of demons myself.

The worst part is that very few people actually deal with these issues at the root, so the problem never truly goes away. Counseling isn’t a bad thing, drugs are ok for a short term, but the root of the problem is demonic.

Deliverance followed by counseling is probably the best bet.

Until the demons are driven out, these problems will persist.

Check out Derek Prince on YouTube. He can help you get free or at least get you educated on the subject. And/or find a deliverance ministry close to you or even online. If you can find an experienced person or persons to pray you through it, you can be free of all of it. The manic depression and desire to drink, all of it.

If nothing else has worked for you, why not give it a shot?

If you need help in locating resources, let me know.