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at least for a while. took a new job doing industrial maintenance on graveyard. i like it so far. drank the past couple mornings after work because i craved it.

heres the thing that sucks. im classical manic depressive. one beer, one fucking drink, tweeks my mood in a bad way. its insidious. i get short and irritatable for days afterwards. hard to explain unless youre so called mental.

my old solution is just to drink heavily. weirdly, i can drink one or 12, i feel the same. hell, sometimes i feel better hungover because the noise finally stops.

i did quit for about 6months a year or two ago. you know what? nothing changed. my life didn't get better. everything was the same, i just had more unused time to kill.

i just don't want to do it anymore. or, more accurately, i do want to do it. i just dont want to pay the cost of being an irtitable bastard for days afterward. i dont want to deal with the stigma. its bad enough to be nuts let alone everyone think you're an alcoholic.

so, no promises. just gotta figure something out cause this aint workin.

at least for a while. took a new job doing industrial maintenance on graveyard. i like it so far. drank the past couple mornings after work because i craved it. heres the thing that sucks. im classical manic depressive. one beer, one fucking drink, tweeks my mood in a bad way. its insidious. i get short and irritatable for days afterwards. hard to explain unless youre so called mental. my old solution is just to drink heavily. weirdly, i can drink one or 12, i feel the same. hell, sometimes i feel better hungover because the noise finally stops. i did quit for about 6months a year or two ago. you know what? nothing changed. my life didn't get better. everything was the same, i just had more unused time to kill. i just don't want to do it anymore. or, more accurately, i do want to do it. i just dont want to pay the cost of being an irtitable bastard for days afterward. i dont want to deal with the stigma. its bad enough to be nuts let alone everyone think you're an alcoholic. so, no promises. just gotta figure something out cause this aint workin.

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It's awesome you're able to stop for long periods. That will be very helpful. The real trick will be digging down to find why it is you feel the need to drink when you do.

For me, it was a bunch of unresolved psychological issues and character defects that I was choosing to delude myself about. Ultimately I was afraid to challenge my own mythology of myself and accept the truth.

Hopefully you've got a relationship with God, because it helps a lot to know that He wants you to be the best most happy version of yourself you can be. Being willing to do it for Him can be a lot easier than being willing for ourselves.

Also, remember - Alcohol lowers your testosterone and many, if not most, alcohol distributors are jew owned. They want you to waste your time, money, and productive potential. Kicking the sauce is a big F-You to the parasite class that wants you to be a barely functioning farm animal.

PS: Welcome to the party. You can do it.