Stay strong, man. Life gets pretty amazing if you can stay sober. It's like taking off a backpack full of weights you never thought you were carrying.
I made it pretty long time then idk....for seemingly no reason at all I said fuck everything and went hard. Still picking up the pieces a couple days later. I got self destructive problems.
That's a very familiar story.
Most people don't want to hear this, but you should really check out the AA Big Book (aa.org). Maybe start with Chapter 3 (aa.org).
If you identify with what they're talking about, you should consider finding a meeting near you. I've been doing it for just shy of a year now, and it's one of the best decisions I've ever made.
I've long debated it.
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