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I wake up in the morning, and suddenly all my thoughts turn to all my of sins and failures, everyone who I have every hurt or disappointed, and the feeling is crippling.

I start to hyperventilate, and occasionally throw up. When I was drinking, I assumed this was a really bad hangover, because drinking more in the morning would make it go away.

Turns out this is just something my mind likes to do in the morning.

The only way I've been able to alleviate some of it is by intense daily exercise. I've been hitting the gym pretty hard, probably too hard actually, and I decided to take a break today because my body felt like it was getting to the point where I was actually going to risk injury if I didn't give myself some time to recover.

And here I am, just feeling the anxiety again. The liquor really helped with this sort of shit.

I should feel good. I did good things today. I was interviewed by a company and offered a job that pays significantly more than I am making now. I have worked out all of my financial problems, and am approaching three months sober.

But I'm feeling crazy levels of anxiety, like anything I do will be incorrect and wrought with horrifying consequences.

I'm not going to drink, but I do know that a drink would make this feeling go away.

I guess I'm going to go to a meeting and pray for those who are worse off than I am, and meditate on what I could be doing better.

I wake up in the morning, and suddenly all my thoughts turn to all my of sins and failures, everyone who I have every hurt or disappointed, and the feeling is crippling. I start to hyperventilate, and occasionally throw up. When I was drinking, I assumed this was a really bad hangover, because drinking more in the morning would make it go away. Turns out this is just something my mind likes to do in the morning. The only way I've been able to alleviate some of it is by intense daily exercise. I've been hitting the gym pretty hard, probably too hard actually, and I decided to take a break today because my body felt like it was getting to the point where I was actually going to risk injury if I didn't give myself some time to recover. And here I am, just feeling the anxiety again. The liquor really helped with this sort of shit. I should feel good. I did good things today. I was interviewed by a company and offered a job that pays significantly more than I am making now. I have worked out all of my financial problems, and am approaching three months sober. But I'm feeling crazy levels of anxiety, like anything I do will be incorrect and wrought with horrifying consequences. I'm not going to drink, but I do know that a drink would make this feeling go away. I guess I'm going to go to a meeting and pray for those who are worse off than I am, and meditate on what I could be doing better.

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Went through a pretty rough cycle of drinking daily for a couple of years to get rid of panic attacks and anxiety. When you sober up, and you're dehydrated, haven't rested properly, your stomach feels terrible, etc, the anxiety comes back twice as hard.

I finally just got out of that cycle about a year ago.

It sucks. But you learn to deal with it. Usually splashing cold water on my face helps to snap me out of it a little. Best thing you can do, is just find a way to distract yourself and stay occupied.