Thanks for judging me, but no you did not find the cause. I have relapsed into drinking because the pain of existence is slightly too hard to bare, but I am only spending ~$16.00 a week on a handle of rot-gut whiskey. My old job evaporating because it was extremely dependent on the buying and selling of houses, which is not happening because of increased interest rates, debt taken on from going to rehab, and taking a new job that significantly increased my transportation expenses are the major issues, although energy bills don't help. I know you mean to be helpful, and I know that my alcoholism isn't helpful, but just understand that I am not going out to the bar, or buying nice beer or liquor. I'm buying shitty whiskey because if I get home from work and think too much all I think about is suicide.