Please keep in mind before you turn back to fapping that you are literally turning back to the broad path that leads to destruction and securing your sentence in hell unless you repent from sexual immorality and abstain from this degenerate behavior. I am not perfect myself but I have been trying to do this after much reluctance but once I learned the truth it was easier. I am not perfect and maybe on six to ten occasions the past two years I have fapped because I am currently not saved, and do not know God, nor will I unless I repent and obey the commandments just like scripture teaches. However I have grown a lot on my journey and I am here to tell you guys I was once a chronic masturbater who constantly watched porn every week usually fapping daily at least weekly for nearly 20 years. Now I feel detestable after I do it and it does get easier.