Because you're a cuck. You want the convenience of believing two mutually exclusive things. On the one hand, you want to be proud of your race. On the other, you want to believe in a foreign ethnicity's spirituality that tells you your race is unimportant. You're like a coalburner who is too afraid to leave her abusive nigger and defends her poor choices by saying, "White women have been dating niggers for as long as I've been alive. Therefore, it's normal." But ten generations ago, the last thousand generations of white women will have lived and died without ever having seen a nigger, let alone dated one. It takes courage to admit that the Jew has deceived our people for centuries, but there's also no denying reality. Now that you're aware that Christianity is Judaism 2.0 and incompatible with your ethnic spirit, you have no excuse to continue being a cuck.