See thats the thing, it doesn't suck. I decided what it would be and did what I had to do to make it what I wanted, I work 120 hours a week at this point between my 2 jobs and poal, I don't spend nearly enough time with my kids but its all what I choose to do. I chose it all, I bust my ass to make sure my kids have what they need and that they will have free speech when they grow up. I chose it all, you can go to work and let things happen, or you can go out and choose a different path. Tomorrow is my one day off this month and I will get up early and go to a valentines day party with my kids because thats what I choose to do. I will be there for my daughters. I could sleep in, but that is more important to me. When I get home I will sit down at my desk and work on the next thing I want to roll out for poal probably while holding the new born so my wife can get the house clean. None of this sucks, its work but it doesn't suck. I will go to work saturday to my shit job and it will not suck because it makes sure my bills are paid, I do what I have to to make sure my family survives and that doesn't suck. family is what matters. Thats what you need to focus on weather its your wife kids parents siblings it doesn't fucking matter family is what people want to destroy so as long as you are building family you are doing the world a service edit, thats coming from a guy who doesn't talk to any of his parents or siblings.