You know like more than 50% of people are single and alone right now, it's not as if you're the only one. Go get a puppy, if you still want to kill yourself in a presence of a new puppy then there isn't much hope for you. Getting a new puppy gives reasons to get out of bed, you might think walks are boring but that little guy certainly wont, and you wont either when you see how happy it makes him. Bond with your puppy, he'll be loyal to you when everyone else has failed you and it'll be you and him against the world but thats fine, to him you are the whole world.