Glad to see you back. I hope you have sufficient pain meds.
I have access to more pain meds than I hope I will take.
What happened to the extreme drug use you keep telling me about how great it is! That’s not the Buddha I know! You must be an imposter They got COFfer first now Buddha!
I have obligations to other people now. I have two young people, with the eldest being the one most needing my attention, that I have obligated myself to. I must give them my best, because that is what I do.
I can't do that if I am fucked up all the time and have returned to the point in my life where I was subjecting myself to rampant drug abuse. I owe them more than that. I owe them better than that. I gave them both promises and one of those promises was that I would give them my best. I don't break promises.
I'd like to think you'd not like me if I were the kind to not keep my word to the best of my ability. But, even if you'd like me just the same, I would not like me.
Don't get me wrong, I'd love to wrap myself in a very heavy opiate high. I long for it.
I just can't do that. I have promises to keep and obligations that I must meet.
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