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Tada!

Just like that, I am back to my regular username. That means that I am home.

I am in agony but at least my traitorous dog has decided to give me some attention instead of hanging out with the missus. Even the chickens seemed pretty pleased with my return.

Alas, because it is a commercial operation, I am damned close to being forbidden from the farm. Insurance would have a shit-fit if I did anything resembling labor there. Going there and doing nothing would be a bit more (or is that less) than I care to do, so I haven't visited.

I actually have let very, very few (local) people know that I am home. I absolutely don't want the flood of visitors stopping by tonight. I am glad that I am well liked, but I really don't need to expend the energy dealing with real-life well wishers. They can wait until Sunday or Monday.

Just like that, I am back to my regular username. That means that I am home. I am in agony but at least my traitorous dog has decided to give me some attention instead of hanging out with the missus. Even the chickens seemed pretty pleased with my return. Alas, because it is a commercial operation, I am damned close to being forbidden from the farm. Insurance would have a shit-fit if I did anything resembling labor there. Going there and doing *nothing* would be a bit more (or is that less) than I care to do, so I haven't visited. I actually have let very, very few (local) people know that I am home. I absolutely don't want the flood of visitors stopping by tonight. I am glad that I am well liked, but I really don't need to expend the energy dealing with real-life well wishers. They can wait until Sunday or Monday.

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[–] • 2 pts

Glad to see you back. I hope you have sufficient pain meds.

[–] • 1 pt

I have access to more pain meds than I hope I will take.

[–] • 1 pt

What happened to the extreme drug use you keep telling me about how great it is! That’s not the Buddha I know! You must be an imposter They got COFfer first now Buddha!

[–] • 0 pt

I have obligations to other people now. I have two young people, with the eldest being the one most needing my attention, that I have obligated myself to. I must give them my best, because that is what I do.

I can't do that if I am fucked up all the time and have returned to the point in my life where I was subjecting myself to rampant drug abuse. I owe them more than that. I owe them better than that. I gave them both promises and one of those promises was that I would give them my best. I don't break promises.

I'd like to think you'd not like me if I were the kind to not keep my word to the best of my ability. But, even if you'd like me just the same, I would not like me.

Don't get me wrong, I'd love to wrap myself in a very heavy opiate high. I long for it.

I just can't do that. I have promises to keep and obligations that I must meet.