(2/2) There is a massively important point at the end, where he discusses the issue of difference. There is a tendency for people not to recognize their own *will to receive*. Many people don't initially have the trouble of beginning to pursue holy knowledge (when they've decided this is what they ought to do). The trouble comes later, and is usually experienced as a form of doubt in which we feel self-delusion. We get a sense that we are fooling ourselves about God for our own sake, that we want this for selfish reasons, and therefore that it does not exist. This is the trap of difference. The key thing to understand is that this is actually a divine nudge. It is bringing light to bear on just how different you are from the source, and by way of this difference also telling you to keep going. We tend to feel a guilt about this difference. When we get the doubtful feeling that we are deluding ourselves, we sense the "I" and our desire for something, and this intoxicates us with guilt. The reality of our separation from the source also piles on the painful vision. Many of us have had this feeling. I've personally run into it at any time that I leaned sufficiently into spiritual progress. Allowing this feeling to convince us that God is just the imaginative inward solution of a selfish desire is the modern way of psychologizing God. This is what we must not do. Embrace the selfish ego that is being shown to you, and know that God exists despite it, and moreover, that this very ego exists as signpost to the reality of God. The fire burns. It really does. I greatly resent those moments where I sense myself as the source of God, and my own internal crudeness and humanity. It makes me feel like a fraud, like a frightened and wishful thinker, or unworthy because of my distrust. These are all part of a fire that you need to stand inside of. Let it burn you up, and just keep going. That's faith.