I've had similar feelings. my father had an attitude that "children were useless, come back a man and we will talk". and when i learned that there were child rapists out there trying to lure me away I went out hunting for them. I would stand on the slide at the park looking for a vehicle that might want to abduct me and I would fantasize about killing this person in the worst ways and then making it on into the local paper as a child hero. consider your hate a gift though. few can conjure up the wrath of hell that can burn a path through your enemies. talk to your kids and make sure that if they have any burning hate that they are controlling and wielding it properly