My cycle is pretty intense as I'm still trying to put on another 30 lbs. I blast & cruise so I am on test year round. These are my weekly #s During a blast: test 400/tren 600/mast 200-400/deca 200/proviron as needed/anastrazol .5mg 2x a week/50 anavar or 100 winstrol daily during a cut/160 clen daily (2 weeks on 2 weeks off) I cruise test at 500mg weekly bc I don't aromatize easily (turn test into estrogen) and feel more confident and at ease at that dose. Test is not something you inject and instantly feel better. It will take a couple weeks to feel right but you will notice things like you will be able to handle any situation with a calm head. The World can be burning down and you will know exactly what to do and helps many people out of depression. It will also help you burn stubborn belly fat (not quickly) but you have to work out to some degree. It is life changing though & I recommend it for anyone over 30. A trt clinic is great if you need a legit source and want to have a prescription (script) for whatever reasons. I need a script bc I travel so just pay a yearly service fee (100 US) for them to write it but get my test from other places. If you don't need a script, it's much cheaper to get it from a domestic underground lab source. At trt level dosing (125-250mg weekly) it shouldn't cost more than 200 yearly. That's with all the syringes and alcohol wipes. A trt clinic will charge anywhere from 75-400 a month depending if they charge insurance or you pay cash. There are things that can be done through a cycle that will keep your boys healthy such as HCG and some prefer to just use post cycle therapy (PCT) when they know they want to have another child. I do know many bodybuilders that have kids even when they are on cycle bc it only takes 1 sperm to reach the egg. It's much more common than people think. One thing I noticed is that most wrestlers (yes I still watch the fake soap opera) have daughters. Just my observation and broscience says it has something to do with the hormone levels of the sperm. It does take a bit to get things at a good place too. Things like estrogen and prolactin. If they are not right you can't build decent muscle. if your estrogen is high you might do emotional stuff like cry while watching your kiddos cartoons with them or tear up if a red light takes too long. If estro is too low, it is worse. It kills libido and will make one seriously depressed. After understanding all that from a few years of being on test, I am more understanding of women when they are highly emotional, bc a lot of those feelings simply can not be helped.