Im somewhat obsessive myself haha, but with all the "redpill" stuff oh boy. Im a young guy, and I needed to read about all those things and I still do, but I noticed I need to be a little careful with it. Its not even a hobby it seems, it's more like a lifestyle. Seeking truth. Which is good, but for me it quickly turns into another form of escapism. Espescially need to be careful with the grim stuff many people on the right say. I mean it is true, the world is fucked, but life is far from not being worth living! Also noticed that if I overindulge in all those dangerously interesting topics too much, I seem to lack topics to talk about when conversing with normies, which is bad for me, as they make up 99% of my social circle. Now I'm trying to treat all the research as just one fraction of my life. Sorry for bombarding you haha but i guess i needed to share some things. Im not the dumbest either, but far from genius when it comes to numbers haha so I know exactly what you mean. On the other hand though, i guess it all takes time. Those concepts are quite large and i personally think they need time to "click" if you know what i mean. Or rather, connecting all those things, form patterns which interconnect, that takes some time.