I appreciate chess, you have to plan ahead. Chess is cause and effect, fighting is the closest thing to chess. Rather play chess long term than fight though.
I don't fight, I don't revenge, I just do my best for me and avoid all stress and conflict since if I do snap I might be the one with a large rock smashing in the persons brain for 20 minutes straight without a clue what I'm doing since that last person I hit I was told since I don't remember knocking him out at all. I snap it's just gonna be bloody since that means my soul took a break and said "Do what you want, I'm not looking". If I'm pressed to hard it might be the innocent one that takes the stress release and doesn't see it since snapping is instant and brutal, it's my survival mechanism and if it happens there will be sorrow but it won't be planned and no angel on my shoulder telling me I should think since the other shoulders devil will be choking down the angel and then raping it in the face.
Fight as in the ring, not street fight lol.
Like I said I don't like to hurt others at all maybe emotionally sometimes but not physically since I've been on the recieving end and don't wish to be a hypocrite and act like the stupid assholes that abused me since then I would become the one I despise and that hate is reserved for others since I hate myself already more than you would ever know. So violence except for survival is not something I ever put on the list of shit that is acceptable for me unless a woman is threatened then caveman Shawn appears with a twitching left eye indicating shit is about to happen to the person in my face and when the adrenaline hits it's to strong and out of control and I don't let my control go even during sex, no kids proves that with never a condom just never let myself go wild like an animal or a moron that has 8 kids since he doesn't ever think. Also the reason for a 100 plus orgasms since my mind is fine tuned for a woman's pleasure. I'd rather yank one out later than risk the worst outcome pregnancy and child support then jail since I am not paying for a kid I wasn't married to the mother. Rather hold it in for a few hours and fuck the night away without a worry than drop a load then get the news she's expecting in a few months.
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