Like a round getting stuck in the chamber at the critical moment where you seize the turn and take the shot. :/
Ah shit, you just made me think about these recurring nightmares I've had throughout my life: in my dream, I'm fighting someone/something. It's nebulous as to what I'm fighting, just something that is bad and I need to deal with.
I'll punch it, shoot it with my "dream gun", kick it, swing objects at it- and nothing affects it. Girlfriends have told me I throw punches in my sleep sometimes, hitting air- a psychologist told me that the sensation of me swinging and missing might be sort of "seeping into my dream", making my dream-self feel like my punching is doing nothing. I awake with this feeling of dread and helplessness, and immediately jump out of bed and do 20 push-ups.
You ever hear of something like that?
Yeah. I call them "James Bond" dreams.
When I was younger, they were more about running away. Slowly, they evolved into going to other direction, where I'm the pursuer.
What you are experiencing is the opposite of "Hypnagogic Isolated Sleep Paralysis." Normally, when you sleep, your brain shuts off the motor functions. In some cases, this process continues even after you start to wake up, leaving you paralyzed in the dark.
When that part of your brain isn't shut down during sleep, you have the opposite problem that you are describing.
Generally, it is the result of "hypervigilance."
If they are causing you a problem, focusing on recognizing and appreciating moments when there are no threats; a minor meditation that you repeat when it is obvious.
This will sound weird, but learning to play drums will also help. It trains the executive "stop and start" functioning in your brain. As a matter of fact, all children benefit from this, as well, as it trains their impulse control.
Generally, it is the result of "hypervigilance."
If they are causing you a problem, focusing on recognizing and appreciating moments when there are no threats; a minor meditation that you repeat when it is obvious.
Use "The Blowjob Standard"
Every once in a while, ask yourself, "Is this time and place the kind of place where I could safely and privately enjoy getting a blowjob?"
If it is, take a moment and just visualize getting that blowjob.
Train yourself to take a break from hypervigilance.
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